Reflections on The Year Everything Came Crashing Down: Finding Hope in the Midst of Chaos

I’ve spent my entire life feeling restless, jumping from job to job, never quite sure if I was in the right place. I felt stuck, lost, and constantly searching for something more.

In 2001, I joined the ambulance service and thought I had finally found my purpose as a paramedic. I climbed the career ladder, won awards, and achieved recognition for my work. But when I became a mum, everything changed. The long shifts, the structure, and the relentless demands no longer aligned with the life I wanted. I yearned for freedom, the ability to be fully present for my son without sacrificing my ambitions.

So, I took a leap of faith, exploring different opportunities, from businesses to network marketing in the hopes of creating financial independence and stepping away from the demands of my career. I tried and failed many times, but eventually, I built my own business. Over six years, I grew it into a six-figure venture, but despite my success, I still felt restless, like I was struggling in quicksand, unable to break through to the next level.

Then everything came crashing down. My business started to fail, and it broke me. It wasn’t just the financial loss, it felt like I had lost everything. My confidence, my self-worth, and my self-esteem crumbled before my eyes. I couldn’t pay myself, I didn’t know how I would cover the bills, and the weight of my failure felt unbearable. The guilt and shame consumed me, I felt like I had let my family down, especially my son. The failure wasn’t just a private struggle; it was public. I had built my business with so much passion and dedication, and now I stood in the wreckage of it all, feeling exposed and ashamed. I felt like I couldn’t show my face, like I was no longer worthy of success or happiness.

I questioned everything. Who was I without my business? Without the identity I had worked so hard to build? It felt like I had been stripped of everything familiar, and I was left standing in the raw truth of my own brokenness. I retreated I withdrew from being seen and I now know I had to break in order to surrender and grow.

Breaking to Heal

But in that breaking, I discovered something profound: true healing and self-discovery.

Losing what I thought I needed actually made space for what I truly did need. It was in my lowest moments that my healing journey truly began. I started exploring different modalities, each offering a unique piece of the puzzle that helped me reconnect with my true self.

• Breathwork brought me peace, clarity, and healing. It helped me release the emotional weight I had been carrying for years, stress, fear, self-doubt, and offered me a powerful tool to quiet my restless mind. Each conscious breath became a gateway to deeper awareness, allowing me to finally let go and find solace within myself.

• Human Design was a revelation, it allowed me to finally understand who I truly am. It showed me my unique energetic blueprint, helping me see why I had always felt restless, why I struggled in certain areas, and how I could move through life in alignment with my natural strengths and purpose. Understanding my design has empowered me to live and work in a way that feels authentic, effortless, and aligned.

• The Akashic Records provided a profound opportunity for deep healing. They allowed me to uncover deeply rooted trauma, karmic patterns, and energetic blocks that I had been unconsciously carrying. Through Akashic Records oracle card healing, I was able to clear these blocks, gain clarity, and experience an unshakable sense of inner peace through a deeper spiritual connection and insight. Releasing karmic blocks has been truly life-changing, offering me freedom from patterns that no longer serve me and clarity on my soul’s path.

Navigating Menopause and Embracing My True Self

As if my journey wasn’t already full of twists and turns, menopause emerged as yet another profound initiation into self-discovery. The physical, emotional, and spiritual shifts that accompanied this phase brought a host of challenges, including:

• Low energy

• Mood swings

• Sleep disturbances

These challenges forced me to slow down, listen to my body, and embrace a new version of myself. Navigating these obstacles became a catalyst for even deeper healing, self-compassion, and a renewed sense of purpose. Despite the difficulties, I learned to find strength in vulnerability and resilience in the face of change.

Why My Journey Will Resonate with You

I share my story because I know I’m not alone. So many of us reach a point where we realise that the life we’ve built, no matter how successful it looks from the outside, no longer aligns with who we truly are. Whether you’re feeling stuck in a career that no longer fulfills you, navigating motherhood while yearning for freedom, or facing a life transition that feels like an ending rather than a beginning, I want you to know this:

Your journey is unfolding exactly as it’s meant to.

Healing isn’t about fixing yourself; it’s about rediscovering and embracing the essence of who you are beneath all the roles, expectations, and setbacks. My journey has shown me that true freedom comes from within—and that when we have the courage to break, we also have the power to rebuild in a way that feels more authentic, more aligned, and more fulfilling.

I invite you to join me as I share my experience in Breathwork, Human Design, Akashic Records oracle card readings and karmic healing, and the ever-evolving path of self-discovery. Together, let’s navigate life’s challenges with grace, resilience, and an open heart.

You are not alone. Your journey matters. And it’s never too late to come home to yourself.